Am I nuts??

Science and Technology. These are the buzz words of this and the centuries to come. Every single scientific development, research, discovery has been defined and described using the funda of counting or totaling. Since ____ (I don't know when), we humans are being taught the "counting" way of dealing with things. 1 + 1 gives 2 and 3 - 3 gives zilch. For simplicity sake I'll use a self defined term "Kouting" to represent the act of counting in this post.

Did we ever questioned that is there anything scientific which is not bothered by Kouting. All human inventions, discoveries, laws which we say rule this universe and every single thing which we can term as scientific is directly based or derived using Kouting. All the physics, chemistry, biology (and all associated blah's) which we humans have defined and are made to believe since our existence is simply based upon the paradigm of Kouting.

I ask, who defined Kouting. Ofcourse...we, the humans. So this Kouting is just "some way to deal with things" which exists only on a small planet in this vast universe. Basically the only tool which we have used over the years to explain all the phenomenons which we have theorized. Our world works on the funda of Kouting.

Don't u think that what wud have happenned if we were having some other tool or instrument other than this Kouting? We humans are trying to overwhelm ourselves by trying to explore the far ends of this universe, research and develop new technologies, appliances of science and what not. Can we be ever able to understand this universe merely using the only tool we have? We have evolved throught the ages and the speed with which we are moving forward to the future is awsome...infact unbelievable. But aren't we going in a very typecast way, we are running forward in straight lane which has huge walls all over the sides...and we never bothered to look beyond those walls to see what lies outside....

Floating strenuously

Feeling an alltime high...the reason, well still trying to figure out. Its like one of the days when u wake up with an xtra zing of energy. First obvious assertion...but no...i slept around 02:15 last night. So can't say, okay Rishabh, ur feeling on clouds coz u hd a sound sleep unlike the other days. But instead of wasting time thinkin about all this, let me utilize the moment for constructive and creative purposes. Ask me anything to do, and God, i'll do it just purrfectly. I'll conquer the world 2day...Hope it continues forever...Life is just beautiful...its always is!!!

simple question...

A simple question which is haunting my mind for the last 10 days or so. Never been bothered by any set of events or the "THE" things to come. Never ever felt the anxiety to find answers to the questions normally i wud answer by clinchers like "hey wot has happenned to u????" or like "Hey...i wud also like to drink wot u had this dawn" or "how do you manage to think about thinking all this?". But this time...i just got wordless, thoughtless, absolute dumb...numb. Had to run away but still the question follows. She as'd me,

It is difficult to analyze which question should i look out for an answer...this question itself or the reason why this popped up.


"Rishabh...why do we gradually loose the people we value the most in our lives? Why there can't be somethings which can never be left behind?"

Feeling nostalgic...

So finally the day arrives when i'm using my keyBORED not for programing but to write something coming directly out of mind, seamlessly.

spoke with karan yesterday after a month. he's also settled a bit after shifting to bangalore. told me tht Infy is also Big Labels but hollow inside. Same projects, processes, frustrated people but better infrastucture which soothes and encapsulates the process of continual stagnation. One bad thing talking to him is tht he reminds me of the Golden days we spend together at NIIT-CRCS (center for research in cognitive systems, IIT-Delhi). Everytime we talk, we come to discussing CRCS which makes me go thinking about the days and each and every moment i spend there which will never come back again. With every passing day, i feel the distance between tht place (which meant more thn home to me), people there and me is increasing. Why is it not possible for us to erase the memories from our minds no matter how good or bad these r. I think good memories are hard and takes long to fade. Initially i remember so painful it was for me to switch over to HCL Technologies from CRCS. Business minded people, processes, infrastructure and everthing. There is nothing here which makes u think and care about the organization and the projects...unlike CRCS. Felt like working without passion. But more than all this is the importance of the fact tht one has to move forward in life cutting all the strings tht tie us to the past, hindering us facing the windward and the future. this is one lesson which is tough to implement in life. One has to tear down the walls tht holds us inside. No one can be angry and happy at the same time...but we can certainly choose to be angry or happy. I've chosen to be happy no matter wot life throws at me.

My best-est friend Moumita told me these words before we decided to part ways...

"One thing you will soon realize that emotional attachments do not give anything other than pains because we keep on expecting from people without understanding their limitations and in the process we hurt them and mostly we hurt ourselves.You should try to grow up as an emotionally independent and strong human being who does not depend on someone else to be happy and content in life. You can never find happiness and contentment outside yourself. You have to find strength within. Then doesn't matter what happens doesn't matter who says what, you can be happy with yourself. Just try to be true to your inner core. That is the only thing that's yours. No relation, no project, nothing is only yours and nothing can be yours for ever."

These are the very fundas which form the basis of my life.