The end begins...

Is this the beginning of the end? Realizing that the things are somewhat getting on the same track as some 8-9 months back...a slow, painful, death of the best thing i have in life. And its not getting any better. And the worst part is tht this time also i fail to understand the what's/how's/why's of the happenings. Everything was fine, infact great. On one bad day i got the blasting of a lifetime n things started getting deteriorate after tht day. Last time this phase continued for more than 6 months...but after that period everything got to normalcy. Wonder for how long this will be continuing, and what'll happen after that. Last time i didnt got into the details and why's but this time i'll make sure that i know the reasons, cause before i submit. Although i wont withdraw that easily this time. I wish this time the fault is all mine because i can only take all this if this is a punishment of the words i've said, things i've done or the words i didn't said or the things i didn't do.
Now wonder...is it the beginning of the end or the ending of the beginning!